Pulang

I’ve been avoiding my parents for months. We had some issues. Atau mungkin hanya saya. Yang membuat saya tidak pulang dan menghubungi mereka berbulan-bulan. Saya terus melarikan diri dari kemarahan saya, pikiran-pikiran negatif dan ketakutan saya.

I don’t know how to express these things i’ve been hiding in my heart. I don’t know how to actually share my feelings with my closest friends. Instead, i keep running away and pretend that i don’t care.

Then there’s this one message, “Papa masuk UGD.”

For the first time after months. I looked up on my phonebook, and tap on my mom’s number. She told me the details.

“Ok. I’ll be there tomorrow.”

Setelah berbulan-bulan, besok saya pulang.

Kata terapis saya dua minggu lalu, saya harus berdamai dengan diri saya, emosi saya, dan ayah saya. Jika Tuhan memang ada, mungkin ini caranya menyuruh saya pulang dan berdamai dengan semuanya.

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