With or without you

That I would be good, even if I did nothing


That I would be good, even if I got the thumbs down


That I would be good if I got and stayed sick


That I would be good even if I gained ten pounds

That I would be fine even if I went bankrupt


That I would be good if I lost my hair and my youth


That I would be great if I was no longer queen


That I would be grand if I was not all knowing

That I would be loved even when I numb myself


That I would be good even when I am overwhelmed


That I would be loved even when I was fuming


That I would be good even if I was clingy

That I would be good even if I lost sanity


That I would be good


Whether with or without you

That I Would Be Good – Alanis Morissette

*Hiding in my bathroom while trying to stop my tears and questioning why this pain still hurt after all these years. I wish I have the courage to kill myself and stop this pain. I’m tired.*

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